Well the moment that I have thought about for four years arrived on Saturday night. Many of my facebook friends are aware from my post that my first copy of my book arrived from the printer. It was so surreal. I hadn’t checked the mail all day and I went out that evening in the dark to walk Oliver, my little yorkie. I thought as we finished our walk I should check the mail. I did and there it was. I just sat there stunned. I guess I followed the pattern of my life. I didn’t jump up and scream or anything. I just calmly carried it in the house and opened the package. I just looked at the book as I held it in my hands. I really felt like I was in shock. I couldn’t believe it had finally arrived. I have waited so long and it has been quite a journey. I have been really waiting to have copies available for those that wanted to read the book. In the next few days I will be ordering my copies to sell on my website. Watch for the announcement.
I couldn’t just do normal things. I went to my friend Annie and Bruce’s house to share the news. We were with the Dearden’s in Kirtland Ohio when I received the email that my book was selected for publication. Then Randy and I went for dessert to celebrate!
I hope Kory is happy with the results. I will try to make the best decisions for the promotion of the book. I keep in mind the purpose of writing this book, it is more than a story and a book, it is so personal. I am inviting the world to experience the most difficult thing I will ever experience. My hope and prayer is that it will honor Kory, and My Father in Heaven. I know the world needs to know of His love for us in all our experiences in this world. Maybe it will be a comfort to those who partake of its content.
As I come near to the release of my book I would like to offer some insight and explanation of the purpose of writing my book.
I felt guided to write my book “Kory” even before Kory’s death in 2002. I see that date and think “Wow!” I can’t believe that it will be 10 years this year since Kory passed away. It has been a painful but an incredible journey. To get a book into print is a long process. It took almost two years from the time the book was selected for publication. It took me five years before I was even able to write down the events of Kory’s death. The book then took two years to write the first draft. Unfortunately I have not been able to write in my journal since Kory’s death. I hope that I will be able to again someday. The experience I had in writing the book was joyful, sad, painful, and inspiring. I would grab a box of tissues for the hard parts and cry and write. Some chapters would just flow and be there. They would pour out of me with divine inspiration and after the chapter was written I would re-read the chapter and be amazed that I wrote it. I can tell you I did not write alone. Not only did I have Kory’s help, but also more importantly, my Father in Heaven guided me through the process. I know all of us come from different stages in our beliefs. Some will look at my book and dismiss the content as not true or worthy of their time. That is okay. My purpose is not to preach or convince anyone of spiritual matters. That is a very personal journey and I believe everyone should come to there own personal conclusions. I am a devote member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I have a strong testimony of the restored gospel and I love my Savior, Jesus Christ with all my heart. I do not want anyone to misunderstand the fact that my book and blog posts do not represent the church but are my own personal opinions and experiences. I love the gospel and am so grateful for the knowledge it gives me to answer my questions. The purpose of writing the book is to help others understand the society that exists in the Spirit World and the incredible love our Heavenly Father has for His children. Even the smallest fears and hurts that we have are His concern. If my book and my blog posts can give some measure of comfort to those who read them, then I have accomplished my purpose.
I would like to continue with a topic that is similar to my post last week. I had addressed the subject of light. I would like to give some accounts of light and colors that I have come across in my research. As I had finished reading the book “Heaven is for Real” it made me reflect on the many wonderful accounts that I have read in the past 35 years. I would like to share a few of my favorites with you.
Since I just finished the book “Heaven is for Real” I would like to start with that account. Colton Burpo had his experience after he suffered from a ruptured appendix when he was four years old. I loved his description mostly of rainbow colors. Near the end of the book he has this experience…
I just finished a couple of new books that are out on the market. They are both stories of little boys that had near death experiences where they visit “heaven” as they called it.
The Boy Who Came back from Heaven by: Kevin Malarkey
Heaven is for Real by: Todd Burpo
Instead of calling their visit “heaven” I will call it a visit to the Spirit World. The thing that I loved was their description of the colors and light. It is a very prevalent aspect of the World of Spirits, that I would like to address this week.
Today I would like to address a topic that I have come across a couple of times in the past few weeks. I just finished a book about a little boy who went to “heaven” and then returned. I believe that he did in fact have this experience but the actual place that he went to was a part of the spirit world and not where we lived before we came to this earth. In addressing one of these issues it brings to mind the topic for today’s blog. Many people think that we are not to know mysteries about God. First of all, our Heavenly Father wants us to know everything! He does give us small portions of knowledge. Line upon line, precept upon precept, but he does not want to hide anything from us. Just as Joseph Smith discovered while reading In 1st James in the 5th verse. It states :
5 a any of you lack b, let him ask of God, that c to all men liberally, and d not; and it shall be given him.
This weeks blog is about the Spirit World and some clarification about this wonderful dwelling place.
I have read a couple of new books this past week and was reminded of a frequently re-occurring frustration I experience when dealing with the subject matter of the Spirit World and our experience with it. There are very few books out there that explain throughly the aspect of the Spirit World and the different places in it. The stories that I come across roll both of these places into one or as a permanent place. I think it is confusing and does not help us to understand the Spirit World better.
It is interesting to me when I speak to someone of my experiences with my deceased son, they either understand or they look at me with a blank expression. I know that it is hard to understand the gift that I have been given to communicate with my deceased son but, I know it is true, I know Kory knows it is true and I know that God knows it is true. And in that, it is all that matters. It is directly a gift from God given to me, and hopefully it can give others comfort. I try to be understanding to others in their skepticism and put myself in their shoes. But I need to tell you from my experience what it feels like to have communication with the divine. I strongly believe that everyone has the ability to hear and feel spiritual things. We are spiritual beings. We are children of God. He loves us and wants to communicate with us.
This week I would like to address something that has been on my mind lately. Have you ever wondered, what your loved one that has passed away is up to? What is their day like? What occupies their time? How are they feeling?
I missed last week with all the Christmas travel and family. But alas a new year has come upon us and it is time to get excited about the upcoming year and all the adventures that await. Through all the demands on our time that the holiday season brings, I am reminded of a blessing that I have come to realize that I was given through the hard time of dealing with my grief at Kory’s death at Christmas.
Today’s blog is about a wonderful subject that brings much joy and happiness. Unfortunately it also brings me sadness. It is difficult to deal with the death of a loved one at Christmas. We are especially sensitive as Kory died at Christmas. But I have learned a wonderful thing about Christmas. Because of this day and the wonderful gift that was given on this day my sadness will not be forever.